its been only a day.

it feels like a week.

you know why, just not being me again. since when have i been me right? i mean since then, i've never been me.

i need a job. i want a job. cos i want my ipod nano.

i'm going to meet esther on monday. bowlin' - but not for soup, just for fun. another thing i need? tennis. yeah, TENNIS. i've not played since i don't know when.

i need to forget.

i want to just fade away...