i watched war of the worlds.
damn. its good. i think actually good enough to balance out the being grounded part. haha! so it was worth while. but i promise i was actuallhy going to tell my parents that i was going for a movie before actually going for the movie. but daniel thanks for beating me to it. bleah. actually the book is better. more vivid. but u know what... how can u squeeze such a fantastic book into a less than 2 hr movie? makes sense right? lol! hmmm... i wanna go read the book AGAIN. haha! then again, dakota fanning was brilliant. tom cruise was good, but not brilliant. good enough to bring out the whole war-ry thing. haha! but i still think such a fantastic book deserves more. like MORE. hmmm... the special effects were good. on the whole i give it 4 and a half out of five! great casting is one reason why! hahah! okay maybe i'm not sane. but haha! sane or not sane whatever. haha! okay i've decided... i wanna do my ITP in advertising. and yes, benita i envy you having secured ur ITP in DDB. i'm green. i wish i could u know. but i wanna do the creatives side. then again.... the creatives might be abit far fetched might it? maybe maybe. but i'm gonna work towards that. okay but i have other kinda goals to work toward now... like getting an interviewee for my first field assignment... okay back to the advertising thing.... but there are those who tell me to keep my options open. okay so what are my other options? i'm thinking photo journ. i remember very clearly the photos in FCC. i was astounded by the depth a 2D image can give. i know it sounds oxymoronic. but its true. its was truly amazing. the amount of emotions some of those photos captured... man. it really proves the cliched phrase "a picture paints a thousand words" to be true. puts all writings to shame. oh wells. we'll see about it. yeap. my eyes are starting to droop. i need a cure for my eye bags - - -

why is it always you-
who turns my world upside down,
but never you-
who is on the other end of my phone line.
why is it always you-
who makes me cry,
but never you-
who wipe my tears dry.
why is it always you-
that makes my day,
but never you-
who looks and smile into my eyes.
give me back a reason why;
that's all i ask of you.

okay. finally a free night. like FINALLY.

alot of stuff been happening. its been killing me. and haunting me. i dun understand what have done. why am i deserving of this. but i think there is a reason behind everything. so yes, everything happens for a reason. i have to figure this one out. stop and think gail.

anyway, today was the last lesson of SEDP. i actually enjoyed the class. its a pity its over so soon.

then i had tennis. it was really nice. fanny did not turn up. but i had a chat with the year one mass commers. hahahha i found the girl who "dug her nose" hahah!!! i remember that video. i really enjoyed the talk. hahah just got to know some new people. oh wells.

okay. so now yea. i've waited too long. i'm done waiting. i'm giving up.

okay. the last few days were HECTIC.

okay good news - bangras extented the dateline for MM to monday. Thanks so much! okay. so what so on tues i went to stay at yi sze's place to do MRM. we ended up sleeping and stoning when we first got there. then after that we caught CSI and we probably got down to work only like at 12mn!! like okay... lol! procastination. lol! okay so i started work and i just kept going. yi sze was KOed by like 4? and i was like still going. and soon enough it was dawn! so great i didn't sleep at all. but at least i finished my part. lol! okay so we went for school late. and yea i survived till MM which was so freaking boring until i fell asleep. like hello. financial statements. lol. k k so after MM we stayed on for advertising until 4 where we went for a movie!!!! a lot like love. okay like finally have a life right. i know. whatever. christine, yisze's friend came along. after the movie. i was KOed. seriously. lol! oh wells. then wednesday stuff as usual. okay i've finally completed lit review! like FINALLY! breathes a sigh of relief! lol! k k i'm just blogging cos i haven't blogged. so yea. bye. yes i do have a clear conscience!!!!

this alabaster jar
is all i have of worth
i break it at your feet Lord
it's less than you deserve
you're far more beautiful
more precious than the oil
the sum o fmy desires
and the fullness of my joy

like you spilled your blood
i spill my heart
as an offering to my King

here i am, take me
as an offering
here i am, giving
every heart beat
for your glory take me

this time that i have left
is all i have of worth
i lay it at your feet Lord
its less than you deserve
and though i've litle strength
and though my days are few
you gave your life for me
i will give my life for you

like you spilled your blood
i spill my heart
as an offering to my King

here i am, take me
as an offering
here i am, giving
every heart beat
for your glory take me

worthy, worthy
you are worthy
worthy is the Lord

Words by Zach Neese
Music by Zach Neese and Walker Beach
copyrights 2005 Gateway Create Publishing/BMI

i love this song. plus! its so catchy. hahah! yeap. thanks daniel for lending me the CD. hahah! yeap. tennis today was slammin'. haha! yeap. okay work is already piled up and is still piling so. yea. i need to go through my MRM research. 100 pages. yea. you get the idea.

"what's life without the lifemaker?"

think about it.

"i will not be labeled average."
--rachel joy scott; columbine martyr

hmm today was good. hmmm i left house to go to school early for research. and yea reached there like together exactly with yisze. yeap. haha! okay what a coincidence. lol! k k so then we were about to leave the atruim for tvprod when it started pouring like hell. so i went to ssic to borrow a super ugly umbrella but the moment we wanted to step out of the atrium, the rain stopped. GRRRRR. lol. k k so we went for tvprod class and ethan was first to present. its was quite funny but i tell you it took SOOOOOOO long. gosh. then its was yawen who was really quick except for the fact that the lighting was really screwed up. k k . then it was me... BLOOPER loaded is the only phrase to describe it. okay okay then we had lunch. the same 8 of us - aloy, liz, dhaniah, wendy, yawen, nicole, yisze and i. then we had alot of laughs and whatever else then we went fro mrm class which was suprisingly quite fun today! it was like so damn hilarious. haha! right. so then school was over and i came to church. i decided not to go for uncle bob's house warming. its like i'm SO lazy. okay nvm. but when i asked my mom if i could go and i told her dan was sending me back she was like.... you only can go if one of ur sisters chaperons you... i'm like... what the??!!!!! so yea you get the picture. hmmm yea yea. anyway really got nothing else worth saying that i can say on public domain to say so yea. au revior!

"i'll be there for you
this 5 words i swear to you
and when you breathe
i wanna be the air for you
i'll be there for you"

from the movie a lot like love

yeap. i am so gonna catch that movie. haha! yeap. tv prod and mrm tmr. hmm i dun think ii;m going for tennis. cos fanny ain't going. so yeap. hmmm.. anyway something really cool happened today... right yisze? right sue en? haha! k k i know i shouldn't but i just can't help it. anyway we actually found books for our mrm lit review but its only 2 pathetic books. yeap. hmmm and we need 8 sources. goodness. yea there's lost later. definately NOT going to miss that. hee! yeap. i'm happy can you see? haha! yeap. i gtg. ciaos!

forgive, let go, and move on.

i want to live in your presence daily
that is my one desire
i want to feel you with me
because i know
i'm never alone
be near, be near

rocky past few days. not been feeling well - both mentally and physically. my da's flying off tmr again. i think i shall go sleep. i'm tired. my aim tomorrow - don't bitch.

vieled eyes

Black.
Where am i?
The sudden burst of insercurity.
The surge of fear.
I am pushed into a new world;
A foreign world;
A place I do not know.
Sight does not matter.
smells, sounds - they jump at me.
Then I see in startling clarity.
What was hidden and buried,
That which was closed and
clammed shut within me,
Apart from this world
I am so familiar with.
A thought hits me.
My mind sees
and my eyes perceive.
I question again.
Where am I?

by abigail chen
please no plagarism!!!

anyway. i had drama and poetry today. it was interesting. made me discover a new part of me.

i went for tennis. i twisted my ankle. dang. well well. all part of life. wear and tear. lol! anyway i'm thinking of joining the tennis club committee. i think i shall. it'll be cool. yeap. okay i've decided. k k anyway i got better things to do. byeeeee!

angel of mine

looking down, seeing despair
only leaving a soul searching for air
feeling the warmth, seeing the light
reaching for wings for the eternal flight
slipping away from this world today
angel of mine you've found your way.
let my love be the wind beneath your wing
as you rejoice in heaven and sing.
angel of mine
your face will make the heavens so bright
with your beauty, grace, and loving spirit.

written by sarah scott
taken from book rachel's tears

beautiful poem aye? rachel's tears is an awesome book. very touching. anyway. i really miss cambodia. yeap. kinda in a bad mood because of it. and yea i dreamt all the 21 of us were back there again. like.. I WISH. damn it. can i go back there? can i? can i? sigh. u guys who didn't go really missed out alot. sometimes i miss it so much i slip into this other world and no one ever gets me when i'm in that world. its so frustrating. gosh. ahhh. anyway i'm having a headache now. rest is calling out to me. bye.

okay. tennis today was rocking man! so damn fun.

i admit i left the house in the morning and i forgot to bring out the racket. so i went back to get it. okay so i was not late for class. and hmmm actually today was quite fun. i played with the camera, the switcher, the DVR and of cos!!!! i was the director!!! muahaha... okay os then there was MRM. the usual stuff... like how different can it be. so then. i went for tennis!!! then dan picked me up! thank you sooo much. i feel kinda b a d.. yes i do have a conscience. cos he's like driving me around? grrr. yeap oh today there was a major megabites conspiracy. okay right. okay yea then then i went for tennis., okay i already said that. i met benita and tim. said hi. hmmm went back to tennis and then i played and had fun. met a yr 1 mcmer. nice girl. yeap. so then went for cell - which i was SO not in the mood for. okay so whatever. to cut it short. its over. the day is OVER. yea yea. hmmm oh wells. i dunno what to say. so i shall leave you with this - when it comes.

I study up my hollowPiece of wood to followA day that doesn't comeTo the luckyAnd I realize there's tomorrowBut I would rather wallowIn the rain then moods that seemSo pot-luckyWell I'm cruising El PaseoIn my off-white coup back '65Or I'm cruisin down my own streetAnd my hooptie says to meYou better hang on to your bench seatI'm gonna take you for a rideAnd I'll let you knowWhen it comes, when it comesI'll let you knowBut don't stay up for meDon't wait up for meIf I'm not homeSo I wait for fate to find meA ball of string unwind meUncomfortable as a centerfoldAnd I realize your behind meTo help and humankind meTo see my songs can be retoldWell I'll be gone tomorrowYes I'm on the road tomorrowSo next time that I see you in schoolIt won't be for too longAnd I'll let you knowWhen it comes, when it comesI'll let you knowBut don't stay up for meDon't wait up for meIf I'm not homeAnd I want a leather jacketBut only if I have the timeWell, I'll comb my hair like ElvisAnd grab an old Gretch 59And you'd hardly recognize me if youSaw me from behindAnd I'll let you knowWhen it comes, when it comesI'll let you knowAnd I'll let you knowWhen it comesJust when it comesI'll let you knowBut don't stay up for meDon't wait up for meIf I'm not homeAnd I'll let you knowI'll let you knowWell I'll let you know

you saw right through me as though i did not exist. it hurt. i miss you.

okay its been like 4 days since my parents have gone and ALOT has happened.

yeap. i got a temporary loan on a tennis racket before i get my n3code lime green one. hahah! yeap. school's been okay this week so far. and i watched mr and mrs smith already! its really funny! WHO'S THE DADDY? haha! yeap. i think its a good show. but not like WOW good show. you know. worth 8 bucks tho'. hmmm so. then i also watched hitchiker's guide to the galaxy. OKAY. definately the LAMEST show i've ever watched and damn so long and thanks for all the fish! hahah! right. and yes i've got my towel. it's a pretty atheist show tho' but it was a good laugh. finished my tv script. slept 8 hrs in 2days. and LOST is startin today! well well. hmmm can't wait for tennis tmr. hahah! and A LOT LIKE LOVE is opening in two weeks time. WAR OF THE WORLDS in a week's time!!! but..... I'M BROKE!!!!!! i like have 47 bucks left till i get my allowance on the 21st!!!! crunch - i haven't paid my phone bill which is like 101bucks. so that leaves me in debt. anyone wanna be my knight in shining armour and rescue me? hahha! anyway. i wanna go finish up the overdue vcd. ciaos. laters!

and yes so what if i'm in love with you. am i? maybe, maybe not.

i wish i could drink a magic potion and shrink way down till i was small enough to fit into his shirt pocket and live there tucked near his heart listening to it b.e.a.t.i.n.g in rhthym with mine
every
minute
of
every
day

off to my gram's birthday gathering soon. okay. so i shall make it quick.

okay dan liked the present. like phew. we were all like clueless until sabrina came up with the idea!!! smart sabrina. i put my design skills to use once again. and then the rest contributed in the monetary sense. haha! anyway. yeap. church was good. as usual. hahha! yeap. lebby was sick tho. poor guy. but the twins were still as cute as ever. haha! uncle chong kiat is back in spore and so is JOSHUA ELLIOT LIM!!!!! hahah! okay i admit. i haven't seen him in a long while and its kinda cool that he's here. well we were all sitting there and just crapping and lazing and laughing around! hahaha. like okay joshua, joyce, jeremy, the koks, my sisters and i, and dan. well it was fun i have to admit. hmmm well well. well everyone else who contributed to get us high. goodness. hahah. well well. i've finally completed my leadership assignment. just have to find references - (which i find totally mind boggling cause how can you reference a personal experience). anyway i've got tv prod to do which i am totally clueless about. okay. so whatever. i got my songs on my phone. and got rid of any unwanted songs. well well i learnt something new too. but i shall keep it to myself until i deem appropriate.

anyway i better go. another time then.
you were there. you were so real i could feel you; i could see you.
i was shaken awake. it was a dream. JUST another dream.
if only it was real.

its a thursday! means i only had 2 hrs of school. wait. it was only an hour.

anyway. i was in jlow's class then she was showing this tape and i happened to be whispering somethign to agnes everytime she turned around! hahha! just the unlucky me. so then i went to get something printed at queensway - obviously a tshirt. hmm then i saw this tennis racket. lime green, white and black!!!!! anyone wanna donate to the abigail tennis fund?! haha! its 210 btw.... so 21 people... ten bucks each?! resonable aye? haha! oh wells.

anyway. the past few days has been a bullet train ride. okay i just found out. my poor grace has food poisoning today!!! hope she's okay by now... okay i'm not lesbo. anyway i got alot of stuff in the past few days. i got my new bag, my 512mb mmc, headsets for my phone, an extra batt, a shirt. yea. may not seem to alot to some of you out there. but to me... its quite a bit. i'm enjoying new space on my phone! haha! and guess what my dad just bought a new phone! samsung!!! 300 bucks!!! i wonder which one it is. haha!!! curiousity killed abigail. haha! anyway i went for theatre idols yesterday. the first play was very good. then the second was okay. then the third was bad. goodness. like okay...

there's supposed to be a gathering to celebrated vanessa's birthday on saturday. but that's on staurday so u know what la. i can't go. but nevermind. they'll probably go for a movie after that. i think i shall tasg along on that.. depends what movie that is. oh wells. i needa get back to my leadership assignment. i'm so stuck. writer's block.... grrr...