i'm gone

i've moved.

the people in the in between

well well, like i said. its been almost three years already. that quick. it's crazy how time passes faster as your get older. time passes so fast that we tend to forget faster and so this is dedicated to the people in between. the people who have made my poly life oh so bearable and let's say that much enjoyable. what continues is pretty much my story for the past three years.

GRACE. haha you the snow white then, i'll always remember you for the "reka, please show him the finger for me". that was a classic. hahah all the graph comm bullshit and the locvid stuff. haha sitting at starbucks trying to write our speech outline. and sitting in the editting booths you watching megan and i fight over the controls. hahah! and your eye rolls. thank you for being snow white and constantly going "abigail, you're so mean! you're a pastor's daughter!". that's a reminder enough.

PEARL. yes cold, tired and hungry. hahah that phrase is exclusively yours. you got me hooked to online shopping (which my pocket has not recovered from since). hahah those crazy drawings and colourings to be as perfect as possible paid off. hahah that fifty bucks that we each won. kudos my friend. hahah the motion tweening which sent us into spasms and the shift sleep. you were always so difficult to wake up, you sleep like a rock. seriously.

NICOLE. yes i know, who said you're my friend. you're by far the only one who has stuck with me through 3 years. gosh how did i survive with you?! hahah. right. well, yes yes, KARMA. one day it will come searching for me. news writing, feature writing, advert, adv advert, PR, webd, radio, tvprod, mrm. gosh that's one hell of a list you know that. i know i've pushed your limits once too many but thanks for still being my friend. hahah! oh yes not forgetting PSS2. seriuosly, i have not idea how you persuaded me to ever go with you to that cheena show in the first place but i guess it wasn't that bad after all. in fact something good actually came out of it. haha! those 20 dollar cab rides home and you pickign and sieving through all those crap photos of mine. i know some of those were fabulous too. and yes our one very classic prank.

REKA. you're my blackest friend. and don't say i'm racist. i'm not i'm just a colorist. ahhaha! nah i do not discriminate. lols. you're my craziest friend. my partner in noise. till silence do us part. lol! i remember the arguements we had over the smallest things in locvid. ahhaha and my sudden night inspiration. remember the splicing during radio which got darren and holmberg all irritated. ahhaha! and those sleepless nights doing advert. our random CHNG KEE's whatever. SPSS and pie charts were our food and fuel for one day. we barely ate as i recall. i love you to bits. but not as much as i love....

MEGAN. the friend that i did not notice wore braces until after 6 months. hahahah those gloria cartoon we drew. haha. and fighting with you over the editting booth? remember. i'll always renmeber you for that story you told us during speech comm. the one where you started a fire in your own waste paper basket.hahah you were the quietest of us all. we all thought you were weird or something haha. WAIT, you ARE weird. hahah!

DARREN ONG KWAN TONG. your name's weird so i just had to spell it out in full. you are the market spoiler. 4.0 for your GPA?! dude. smart ass. too smart sometimes. you and nic always in cahoots all ready to fire a shot at me. thanks for the B for locvid though. hahah we all know you are the reason that we got that grade. ahahha! remember that thing at megabites? the one that grace felt so guilty about for weeks. hahah it was when we got back our writcomm assignment. haha i remember you got an A on that one and we thought that that was the reason for the sudden generousity. now we know better.

YAWEN. i can't believe how much we have in common. the late nights rushing out the newspaper and magazine. you, liz and nic going on and on about how karma will find me. okay ikea wednesdays and hotdog days. "studying" for exams and couldn't care less about that damn da chang jing whole kpop thing. hahahah. oh yes, that credit card job that we took. with that whatever it's called company. and then there was the whole grey's anatomy and desperate housewives thing. hahahwe got eliz sucked into the GA. yes, now you got no time. how positively saddening!

AGGIE. my gossip alter ego. yes, the so very unglam mass commers we are. ahahah the spontaneous posdcasts with liz. man that sent my t*ts laughing! ahahah! the whole uncle toby's thing and the random weekly? oh yes and our sibu island escape. hahahh i will miss your oh so damn contagious laughter. hahahah thinking of you laughing can make me laugh already.

LIZ. hahah yes no one knew you as lai UNTIL i came along. the nights we spent up trying to conceptualize CHNG KEE's. the ideas we came up with. you were so random. hahah staying up night after night just to get the whole thing done. funny how we were in the same school for 4 years and only knew each other after we came to poly. and remember all the times in the freaky darkroom freaky.

YISZE. well well. you had my biggest secret. thanks for not dishing. hahah. remember that ceazy all nighter we pulled to do that MRM lit review and we still went for a movie after that. hahah! CLASSIC. so us. and the news writing. all the subbing and what not staring at word till our brains were too tired to think. and we could still watch initial D after that. hahah. see the pattern? hahah.

well well of course there are so many more people like princess juju, cassan, fi, zat who's never early, awon who got me through the 5 months are netremedia... oh yes i almost forgot. the takhmau people. damn you guys were fun. like i said time passes too fast and we forget even faster. and we all move on to chase...... jinny joes.

omega

Yes, i've finally come to the end of a 3 year long quest to get my diploma. today i have submitted my very last assignment ever as a student of mass communications at ngee ann polytechnic. and as usual the anticipation/excitement is way more than the actual thing in itself. i'm gonna miss the lame jokes of agnes koh. and man as fast as the 5 months did pass, so did the past 3 years. i've already missed the company of friends like grace, lynn, megan, pearl, reka, nicole, agnes, darren, yawen, liz, yisze. notice darren if you see this ever that you're the only guy in that list. honoured? hahah okay whatever. i know what you're thinking. dun even say it. nicole you too.

oh wells. and so everyone is like asking me.... "so abi/gail/abigail what are you gonna do?" i tell them i'm not sure, i don't have plan and what not. made me really think. maybe i'm an escapist. cos i seem to wanna run from everything. or maybe deep down i'm just so afraid of starting something and failing. going to uni is not an option for me. financially and realistically. why the hell would i wanna get a degree in design or photography. UNLESS its neurology that i'm gonna study. but what's the point in chasing degrees? all it is is a cert and at the end of the day its not even that that counts. i mean its not like a degree will ensure you one foot in the door of heaven. i mean if its does by all means. it's all about means to an end isn't it. and a degree is not the means to the end i wanna be at. if at all getting a degree might get me further from my end. so what's in a degree or that piece of paper? money?

so i'm going to Israel for sure. dunno the exact dates yet but yups i am going to sojourn the holy land. hahah that's exciting. i can't wait to go honestly. it'lll be one hell of an experience. and the photos... oh yeah. hahah!

anyways, i'm onto a new show called HEROES. hahha. so damn bloody cool. hahahs. in fact i'm gonna watch it when i finish this post. i also finished another jodi picoult book called keeping faith. i did not really like that ending but the book is a good book as jodi picoult's other books. this explores religion and faith. it's a very daring book i would say. and then i finished "if you could see me now" by cecelia ahern. that book was very fun and bittersweet. imaginary friends. that was what it was about. actually both books dealt with imaginary friends. well i'm a BOOKWORM!!!!! hahah. proud of that.

I like this extract in Keeping Faith.... its the conversation Faith's mother had with God when Faith had her second major hospitalization.

'You,' I say, anger clawing its way up my chest.
'She isn't in pain.'
'Do you think it makes it all right?' I shout.
'Believe in what i'm doing'.
I cannot trust myself to answer right away. I think of Ian, of what he has said about God. 'How can i believe in You,' i whisper, 'when you would do this to a little girl?'
'i'm not doing it to her, i'm doing this for her.'
'semantics don't make much of a difference when you're about to die'
For a while God sits on the edge of my bed smoothing (His) hand over the covers and leaving behind a silver patina, like the gilding of great ages gone by. 'Did you ever consider,' she says softly, finally, 'that i know what it feels like to loose a child?'

that's it. FINITO.

quote of the day?
When God said "jump", Abraham asked... "how high?"
--Ian Fletcher in Keeping Faith.

my sister's keeper

oh my gosh, this book is amazing.

i cried reading this book i promise. it's so moving. you can't decide who's in the wrong cos no one is actually in the wrong. we'll at least form everyone's point of view. the book is full of unexpected turns and full of questions that we ask everyday. what is isolation? why do we feel lonely even with all the people around us? when is it time to let go? when does loving someone too much turn to selfishness? is life ever fair? we all have our secrets. this book is just AMAZING. i love it. Jodi picoult is just so brilliant in crafting this novel. my mind is swarmed with thoughts. the book is overwhelming and it's gonna need soemtime for it to be fully digested.

other than that i've got an offer to buy a macbook pro. its a really good offer and reallly tempting one too. but do i jsut want this or do i really need this? i dunno. damn it. and my iBook will only be back sometime in the coming week. there's only 5 more days left to the end of IAP and about 8 more days before my final report is due. the thing is, what am i even going to write in that report? UGH.

oh wells, i guess i really got nothing much to say except that something really awkward happened today. but i shall not recount it. and for the record, it involves someone's reallly huge ego.

quote of the day?
dark matter has a gravitational effect on other objects. you cant's see it, you can't feel it, but you can watching something being pulled in its direction. --brian to julia in my sister's keeper.

untitled

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! i've watched episode 14 of season 2 of PRISON BREAK!!!! YESHHHH!!! FINALLY!!! you have no idea how long i've been waiting for this. and damn jsut when you think this is as good as the show get the producers just proves you wrong. so wrong. kudos.

anyway i've liked this song all along but i suddenly decided to googel the lyrics and look what came up... i love the first two lines of the chorus.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

oh wells. if you have been wondering where i've been, whihc i highly doubt so, my ibook decided to go swimming last week. yes i know. its gonna cost me about a thousand bucks. WTH right? so veron has offered me a very attractive price for her macbook pro. should i? she even said i could pay her by installment. i promise i've known so many nice people through this project superstar 2 stint. hahaha lousy friend, his royal highness hahaha. oh man his face was classic yesterday. hahahah CLASSIC.

oh wells, so its only a week more to the end of internship. rather 6 days after today. i'm contemplating how to tell boss that i dun wanna make up the 4 days to just deduct it from my pay. i mean i'm so tired already and final report is due 5th feb. nightmares. anyway, twins' birthday the coming monday! so fast they're already 3. gosh. its really quick REALLY REALLY quick. i sound like their mom. SHEESH.

BIG YAWNS, i'm so tired. oh yes i bought a jodi picoult book "my sisters keeper".

quote of the day?
Under this mask there is more than flesh and blood; there is an idea, and ideas are bulletproof. -- V

Plain Truth

I finished my second Jodi Picoult book IN A DAY. infact less than a day. the book is just so well written it draws you into the story. and somehow this book is so relatable to me. This book deals with choices and consequences. it deals with acceptance and forgiveness. it deals with the fine line between the truth and what we believe to be the truth. it deals with being different, being selfless. it's a fantastic story. is the truth really the truth or just what we want to believe? how often have we told a lie just because it was easier and it would hurt less? how often have we let our own selfishness hurt others? just for that moment just because we feel like it, just because we want it, just because. we make excuses for ourselves to be selfish in that moment. and like Jodi Picoult wrote in the book, "it all adds up".

off cos i have grace to thank for lending me this book. its fantastic. gripping and its reflective. you don't just read it and go like "OMG, this character is so pitiful... blah blah blah...." its more than that. you read this book and you actually think. And the book is so fun, it has these questions at the back of the book that are for like book club discussions that are kinda very literature lesson kinda questions. let me show you...

1. What character has the most to learn during the course of this novel? Why?


2. In what ways does immersing herself in Amish culture alter Ellie's perception of the case? Of Katie?


3. Does the American legal system have the right to govern a group that lives separate from American society?


4. To what extent is Katie responsible for what happens to the infant?


5. What role does Hannah's ghost play in forming Katie's actions? Sarah's?


6. Jacob Fisher and Leda are two characters who bridge diverse worlds in this novel. Are they successful? Explain.


7. Do the actions of the men in this book aid or detract from the growth of the female characters? Explain.


8. Was Aaron Fisher justified in cutting Jacob out of the family?


9. The Amish base much on the concept of Gelassenheit, or humility, and putting others before yourself. What examples support this? In what places in the book does this not happen, and how does it affect the society?


10. Forgiveness is a basic tenet in the Amish faith. Which Amish character in this book forgives the most? Who is the most unyielding?


11. What about the Amish culture is similar to “English” culture? What is the most different?


12. Is the verdict a fair one, in your opinion?


13. Why would an Amish person accept a punishment without having committed a crime?


14. What do you think would have happened if the baby had lived?


15. In your opinion, what occurs after the last page is turned-- to the Fishers, to Katie, to Ellie?


16. What do you think Ellie will do with the information she learns from Sarah at the end of the book?


17. Why do we care so much about Katie Fisher? How does her specific situation come to touch upon universal issues like community estrangement and forbidden love?


18. What kind of a man is Aaron Fisher? As you were reading, what were your reactions to his choices? If you had to, could you make a case for defending his code of life, his propensity to put the community above the individual?


19. "You know how a mother would do anything, if it meant saving her child,"Sarah tells Ellie. And earlier on, referring to her ability to butcher chickens with remorse, Sarah says to Ellie, "I do what I have to do. You of all people should understand."What is Picoult up to here? Why should Ellie in particular understand this?


20. "We all have things that come back to haunt us,"Adam Sinclair tells Katie at one point. "Some of us just see them more clearly than others."Discuss the ways in which the ghosts of the past come to haunt the present action in PLAIN TRUTH. Of all the book's characters, who comes to "see"things most clearly? Ellie? Jacob? Sarah? Explain.


21. What kind of future do you see for Ellie and Coop? For Katie and Samuel? Jacob and his Plain heritage?


22. Discuss the significance behind the title. Is "Plain Truth"a different sort of truth than "plain truth"?

okay enough bout the book. i was so in need of a miracle oday and i got one. yes, hanyuen thank you for lending us your DSLR. couldn't be more grateful. oh project superstar tmr will be so fun cos grace will be there tooo!!!! HEHS! and damn there's officially only 14 MORE DAYS to the end of IAP! oooh oooh. HOLIDAYS! HOLIDAYS!!!!! can't wait. oh wells. so there. i'm gonna watch my shows!

quote of the day?
We all have things that come back to haunt us, some of us just see it more clearly than others --Jodi Picoult from Plain Truth

Fear

Dr. Tancredi: Here's what I think. I think you are scared and you wouldn't be human if you weren't scared in a place like this.

Michael: When I was young, I couldn't sleep at night because I thought there was a monster in the closet. But my brother told me there wasn't anything in the closet but fear. And fear wasn't real. He said it wasn't made of anything just...air. Not even that. He said you just have to face it. You just have to open that closet and the monster would disappear.

Dr. Tancredi: Brother sounds like a smart man.

Michael: He is. In here though, you face your fear, you open that door and there's a hundred more doors behind it. And the monsters that are hiding behind them are all real.

this is a quote i love from prison break. i can't figure out what episode its from though. that's all i guess. haha!

she lies with angels

okay you may be thinking "what the hell abigail" but before you even continue thinking along those lines. this is because i just read a x-men comic where they introduce the character icarus. so he has the powers of flight, the ability to mimick any sound he hears and he has vocals of a human choir and of course with any angel like mutant - healing powers. but that's not the point. the point is that this comic was written as a tribute to the all time classic shakespear playwright romeo and juliet. so you can pretty much figure the story but what i love about this comic is more of the last few frames....

she lies with angels
and loved them more
than heaven's heart could hold
she lies with child
then left his care
and both would weep from cold
child to youth
remembrance dims
but passion still must hold
two angels lie too bold
two angels lie so bold
she returns to the heaven
that missed her love
her memory spun to gold
may she ever lie with angels
may you ever lie with angels

and that's all for today's post cos there's really not much to tell. except that every monday when i come back from prooject superstar i'll have a new fav chinese song. hahah! so lame i know. hahah!

the moment in time

when we were all little we all had dreams. some girls dream of being in white wedding dresses with their prince charming waiting for them at the altar and their dad walking them down the red carpet with flowers daintily scattered over it. mine was very much the opposite. i've dreamt of travelling the world. i've dreamt of being some big shot photographer/designer. but my most abandoned and still dearest dream is the one to be a neurosurgeon. no, it's not about the show grey's anatomy. it's not about mcdreamy. its about what i want to do. i want to be the person who can tell someone after he/she believes their life is over that "hey, you've got a second chance". i want to be able to go inside someone's head and right a wrong. but don't we all, when reality is shed upon us, abandon these dreams we as children have hoped upon. we settle for less. we walk away because we are afraid that we would fail. but because the child in us never dies... one day, your dreams will come back and all you feel then is a sense of lost that washes over you.

that is how i felt when joanne told me that tracy is studying neuroscience. suddenly i felt unaccomplished. i think to myself. what if i had went to jc and then tried for medicine. then i tell myself, i'm not smart enough. but this is all but an excuse. but after all, this is something i have to live with. the WHAT IFs of life.

today, i saw another person's quest to a dream being put to a halt. even though i expected lesheng to beingg given the "golden handshake" it was still not a pleasant sight. it only occured to me that he has no family here as he is from china. it's quite trying and it takes alot of courage to go through something like that without your family supporting you. and for the record, he has a really nice voice. the guys started crying after they got off air and it was a really awkward position to be in. do i intrude that moment of weakness and take the photo that will be a good journalistic shot or do i lean on the side of compassion. i was at the recieving end of an uncompasionate jounralist once. when i was in sec 3 and had just finished 3 last on a race that we were supposed to be the top 8 at least. i had pushed myself so far i couldn't stand because of all the acid. i was crying from the pain and all that journalist want to do was snap a picture. fortunately i had teammates who were kind enough to ask her/him to leave. is that how they felt when i was taking those photos? bare and helpless. did they feel like the prey?

maybe i am thinking too much tonight or rather tthis chilly morning. oh wells. i had finished Vanishing Acts already. the book is very good and i recommend it to anyone who is finding for good reading material.

well i'm finally heading to bed.

quote of the day:
Memory is the only way home. --Terry Tempest Williams, as quoted in Listen to Their Voices

all good things

well 2007 is finally here. time flies huh. its strange how time passes quicker as you get older.

anyway, my new year's night was passed at my aunt's place. was quite a night although not everyone was there. the michelle, melissa, lance and michael were not there. pearl, my bro and anna were not there too. but nevertheless still had quite a fun time. it was so funny when aunt sally was more excited than anyone else when the ships put up their flares at 12 midnight. but she was so nice about it "i'm so excited cos you all are here to celebrate new year with me". hahhaha how nice of her.

sigh back to work tmr. i'm dreading it. sheesh. i know abigail. i know it's all part of life. well, i got a job offer at a design firm and i don't really know if its what i wanna do. i know i shouldn't rush to make a decision but i don't want them to hold the place for me until march and me to tell them only then i do not wanna work there. it isn't very nice. wells. what i;m thinking is working at believers music as a guitar or keyboard teacher. and freelancing on design. i don't know. this way, i get to spend more time on doing something that i feel is more useful. but then i heard that the pay at believers isn't very good and i do not believe i am a good teacher. imagine me... hahah i can't totally. but i guess it would probably be a challenge. it's really something to think about because what if i don't get freelance jobs? would i be able to earn enough to help put my sister through school and live independantly?

anyway, i am halfway through a book by Jodi Picoult called Vanishing Acts. this book is INCREDIBLE. the method of storytelling is not the traditional through one persons eyes. but the story is told through the 5 main characters. the stories of these five people are seamlessly woven. the book deals alot with the fragility of what we already know and what's lost and what happens when you find it. what if its not what you think you've been looking for. what happens then? you can't just throw everything away. what now. its exceptional. i'm saving the book. cos, i can't find more of her books. anyone with more of Jodi Picoult? or Cecelia Auren.

quote of the day?
Sometimes it is necessary to reteach a thing its loveliness --Galway Kinnell, "St. Francis and the Sow"

Blogger ate my original post

omg, my super duper long post was eaten up by blogger and trust me to be too lazy to bother to type it out again. so here it is in point form.

24 dec
had boon tong kee chicken for lunch. i have not eaten so much chicken in one day ever. no tennis cos of the rain. mahjong all the way from 8pm to 4am the next day.

25 dec
slept till 12, had yummy beef ball noodles for lunch, baked a cake without flour. because i don't have a electronic beater, some serious muscle work was done. had dinner at uncle chong kiat's mom place. portsdown road. saw these two exact vintage alfa romeos. i'm such a sucker for vintage cars and fast cars.

26 dec
went bowling with the lims, koks and andrea's friend bill. hahha! jarren had the highest score of 134 of cos with the help of gutter ramps. took a really epensive cab ddown to nicole's place then to mediacorp. again most of the girls performance was a BIG YAWN and the guys was definately much more entertaining. had an encounter with a really annoying person whom we out of the kindness of our hearts toook in but damn karma must really not be on nic and my side. poor weijian was just caught in the middle.

wells, christmas has gone and 2007 is just round the corner.

resolutions? what's the point.

quote of the day?
But for now, let me say -
Without hope or agenda -
Just because it's Christmas -
And at Christmas you tell the truth -

--Mark from Love Actually

hey dumb dumb

okay awesome.

i just watched a night at the musuem hahah! its hilarious! totally. hahahah... "hey dumb dumb, where's my gum gum? oooooh you better run run from attila the hun hun." hahahs! it get stuck in your head. super. hahaha!

anyway, christmas is round the corner. not like i celebrate it anyway. but yeah. anyhow's the holiday is just perfect for me. no work and i'm happy sleep ins!!! hahahas! no work for me till the 28th. okay can't beat yawen's one week and sarima's 2 weeks but it still is something. better than nothing. lols! oh wells.

so then. lunch and tennis tmr. hahahs. tennis tennis again. and hmmm dinner after that. wells wells. what else am i going to do. without prison break. bahhs. until 22nd jan. ooooh hope my bro gets an autograph. i'd be sooo jealous. SOOOO SOOO jealous. but still. omg i haven't said this in a long time...

WENTWORTH EARL MILLER IS SOOO DAMN HOT!

ahhaha okay i'm happy. i wanna go melbourne on the 28th. i wanna go i wanna go i wanna go.

BAHS!

so much so...

i must say, i'm one lazy bum.

okay that aside. over the past week did some pretty cool stuff. let's see i watched happy feet. i watched "fu zi" and damn the holiday! my pick: the holiday. i love nancy meyers. and omg jude law the moment he steps on screen you can forgive for being the playboy and jerk he is in real life. hahhas! seriously. the show is incredibly heart warming and a super "awwwwww" factor. i promise, if i were in the show, i'd marry jude law right then and now. and damn if he ever appeared on my doorstep, who knows what i'll do huh. but i love the show. not the best but one of the best amongst the mass of movies i've watched. and i must say kate winslet gave a pretty good performance. i always couldn't dettach her from the titanic character until now. but one casting mistake - JACK BLACK. i just keep expecting him to pop out and do something outrageously stupidly funny. just wrong. maybe they were trying to cast someone different but i think this just does not work. not here. but other than that, the show was nice. with pretty nice shots and nice lines and amidst the blabber roars of laughter hidden. a lil predictable but still good. i'm sorry but i can't help but say jude law is sooooooooooo enchanting in the show. you just can't help but wanna go grab him and give him a great big hug on the show! love him, love the show.

enough. so then, i bought the new chris tomlin cd. good music. like it. and hmmm what else, i'm back to watching smallville. and gosh you just hate it that lex luthor is going to be evil. and you just can't stand lana and clark in the same room. i actually finished watching higher ground. oh hayden christensen. although many just cannot stand his "stoned face" acting, i must say, its not at all that way. i dunno i guess some people just can't read it off his face. gosh that face of his, even if his acting were crap you can forgive him for it.

i just heard from khai awhile ago that prison break DID NOT GET ANY GOLDEN GLOBE NOMINATIONS?!!!!! like HELLO?! SERIOUSLY! that show is a phenomenon. its a revolution. what is wrong with these people?!!!! UGH. and cast is so perfectly in sync with each other. gosh. whatever happened to good critics. anyways, i'm still waiting for it to come back on in the states.

anyhow, i'm more than halfway through my IAP. can't wait to get out. just don't really appreciate sitting in freezing old offices doing almost close to nothing my freezing my own arse off. just another 7 weeks to go. just 7 more weeks.

quote of the day?
A true friend is one soul divided into two people. -- Aristotle

just another day

not much. very unhappening except that i actually mananged to vacumm and mop the whole house. tidy it and all avoiding a squabble. miraculous huh.

so i woke up today with a headache. so i decided i shall give myself a rest. went back to sleep woke at around 10 plus, 11. did more work. and then i sat down to watch JUSTICE LEAGUE and freaking WINX CLUB. steph and sarah if you ever read this. winx club is too lame okay.

then i took out my secret stash and started watching erm CRIMINAL MINDS. the first one i watched was a kid who was a serial killer because his dad paid more attention to other kids than him. next was this psycho who wanted revenge on his teammates who abandooned him in his lowest. so he caught their kids and made sure they turn on each other. so now that we've established that disaccord and jealousy is indeed the fastest way to being a murderer, let's move on to the next episode of criminal minds shall we?

quote of the day?
That man can destroy life is just as miraculous a feat as that he can create it, for life is the miracle, the inexplicable. In the act of destruction, man sets himself above life; he transcends himself as a creature. Thus, the ultimate choice for a man, inasmuch as he is driven to transcend himself, is to create or to destroy, to love or to hate. --Erich Fromm

my mediacorp studio cherry

6 weeks and 6 days

yesterday night was my first time in a mediacorp tv studio, during a recording - project superstar. again thanks to nic for bringing me along as your "cameracrew".

first things first. i seriously need to go brush up my chinese cos i couldn't understand 75% of what was being said by the judges. seriously, i would be like turning to nicole after every sentence and ask like... erm so what's this this this or that that that. sorry nic if i waws in anyway irritating or distracting i sincerely DID NOT mean to be that way.

secondly, i'm pleasantly surprised by the vocal quality. especially of the guys. so needless to say i've found someone who i think is worth supporting who has good vocals and good stage presence.

thirdly, i'm disgusted by some of my shots cos i couldn't get up close. it would be nice to get up close but i guess it'll disrupt their filming and i might get into the way of the BIGGER studio cameras which isn't really a good idea. and i love their studio lighting!!! hahahah the spot lights and all. so much more interesting compare to school studios!!! hahah like their lighting.

fourthly, i think the host were not bad although i really couldn't catch what they were saying half the time. but they were still entertaining.

so as you can see i did enjoy myself, but damn i was so tired after the show. i got home, washed up and flop right onto the bed. and this morning i still feel fast asleep on the train. like seriously. the moment i sat down i dozed straight off. and damn i'm so sad that the rubber piece at the bottom of my new shoes came off. i dunno how but i was walking fromt eh mrt to the pico building and like all of a sudden i felt one that one leg was longer than the other. gonna go down to jurong point to get it fixed later.

lastly, SARAH GRACE SULISTIO and family are hooked on PRISON BREAK! hahahah. sarah i love to say this. I TOLD YOU SO!

quote of the day?
.. it won't always be like this, this room, this place. - wentworth miller as michael scofield in prison break

laughs out loud

7 weeks and a day.

today was fun.

first, i have to thank nic for bringing me along as her photographer. yes, we caught whose line is it anyway. the original cast from the british show. it was totally mind blowingly hilarious. hahhas. so funny i could barely hold the camera still. they are highly witty and creative. and damn the most random people ever. lols. the classic was the james bond one. they have really good chemistry. they should after working together so long. i laughed till my throat is now SORE. lols. the spontaneous lyric making and singing. damn they are good. what's so perfect is that will never be anyone who see the exact same show. lols! i especially like the koala and olympic chess. concentrations camps and gayness. the mongolian expert on BBQ and cheese. hahhas!!! omg soo freaking funny! hhahaha i'm laughing even just thinking of it. the guy who worrks for margret thatcher in "bootland???" filling cadbury chocolate cream eggs with ball bearings from nail varnish. hahah! damn funnny. the cross voicing was really good. so good you'd think its the person who is motioning that is speaking. hahha! the hero dies. the cows on the moon. tthe diahorrea froom cows. help me doctor! hahaha! damn damn. hilarious. outrageous. hahhas. okay i think nic wiill have nothing to write for her youth.sg article if i delve into more details.

so, church was fine. and damn no prison break this week. sigh. tennis tmr and a dinner at giraffee. okay right. lalaland awaits my arrival and i'm hell bloody late.

quote of the day?
how women can spend hours preparing the foood and men burn it in two minutes -One of the Whose Line is it Anyway comedians on BBQs

Temptations

We all make choices.
What's yours?

i just watched a new movie. THE LAST KISS. a good one. first up, the cinematography was really good, i dunno how many times i said nice shot in the whole show. the cast is very well assembled and damn zach braff is one hell of an actor together with the rest of the cast. a great plot, great story with a strong punchline. it's kinda a nicholas sparks mixed with comedy kinda show. bittersweet, the kinda show you hate/love characters for doing certain stuff. i like the script of the movie too. very well crafted. i especially like the part where Jenna's dad could sorta sense his wife of 30 years anna. its amazing to see that kinda love, i mean its not the let's just get down to it kinda thing. its the thing, the kind you can't live without. the kind that you never realise is there until one day WHAM! it smacks you in the face. its especially sweet. the movie's good and the acting's good. made me tear and made the person behind me cry. i'd say this is one youu can't miss. it's sorta kinda helps up think about all the "what ifs" of life. and what if the what if's really happen. you don't want to go ahead with the what ifs and find out that you can't go back. we say learn from mistakes. but some mistakes are too big to be made. as much as i hate to say this, sometimes you just can't risk it.

oh wells, so i must prouudly declare that i'm on holiday tommorrow!!! how good is that. its the only reason why i'm still awake. i'm basking in the sensation of not having to go to work tmr. lols. today's work was fun. right avonda and desmond. hahaha *sniggers*. wells. i must say though that it was a better use of the time. hahah!

catching up and joking arouund like old days? totally nostalgic moments today. i miss the old days in school bahs. remenicing already huh. well, i think that's all for today.

quote of the day?
What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you love. That's what matters. That's the only thing that counts. -Steven in The Last Kiss

Regrets

office was totally still freezing. and i was totally bored to my wits end. but who cares now that i;m home and have watched my oh beloved prison break and went in prison break hahahh.

oh how i love prison break. lols this episode, highly intense. i love the outcome. the twists. just perfect. the way went stared at the phone in the scene where sara called back, man he could melt my screen. anytime. this episode "the killing box" one of the best. man love it to bits. i can't really say much cos people who haven't watched it would kill me if my blog were full of spoilers. this episodes was about regrets. sara regrets leaving michael in that room, michael regrets getting caught and kellerman regrets helping caroline. just exactly what are they going to do about it. i love this show.

quote of the day?
linc: knowing what you know now, do you regret helping me?
michael: yoou would have done the same for me.
linc: you think
michael: i know
linc: you did not answer my question
michael: i do not regret the act, i regret how it turned out.
-- taken from Prison Break's "The Killing Box"

it's freezing cold.

i forgot to bring my jacket to the office. already with a jacket its freezing. imagine what happens without a jacket. plus- it's raining, and the office is on the second floor. oh did i mention that its a central aircon. so you can't adjsut the temperature. i need winter wear. reason to shop hahha! bull.

so then, this episode of prison break is gonna be the last till 22nd january. gosh. i hate it that what i hearing are comments like "omg, they can't end it like this". it's a bad sign it means the suspense is gonna be killing suspense. how am i gonna live with this? for 8 weeks?! bahs. sobs no prison break for me. how positively saddening.

so yesterday after work i went all the way to jurong point SPECIALLY to get the lastest issue of PEOPLE magazine. hahha the sexist men issue. let me say, i got it solely for wentworth miller. although there was clooney, denton, purcell, jackman and blah blah blah in it, i promise, a magazine costing $10.40 is only worth it for went. but what do i get? a QUARTER PAGE picture that's super duper disappointing. sigh. but nevertheless, there's him. lols! i want august's isue of DETAILS!!!! anyone? work has been so erm..... relaxing? hahha. perfect. mroe time for me to surf and blog right? and look at photos and cameras and do online shopping haha! horrible horrible abigail. lols. so i bought lime magazine this morning. i must say that i was embarrased to even pay for it. but damn the almost full page wentworth pic is worth it. hahahha. damn obssessions. it was so embarrassing reading lime magazine on the MRT train but of cos, i paused at the wentworth page and stared at him for quite abit. you do not want me to delve into the details like seriously.

last night, i got down to watching grey's. pretty good episode. this one's about betrayals. good plot. intense. i like how they showed the what ifs. but i'm confused it there was a moment between karev and addison. was it a moment? the soundtrack is so damn good by the way.

okay, seriously. my hands are freezing. ice cold. BRRRRR.

quote of the day?
"In some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When our bodies betray us, surgery is often the key to recovery. When we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that was lost. And then there are some wounds, some betrayals... that are so deep, so profound that there is no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait." -Christina Yang in Grey's Anatomy's From a Whisper to a Scream

family, it's all about family.

pearl's back from brokenhill and it's actually her birthday. so today was for her. yes brokenhill is actually a place. hahahh.

so we go there, and of cos aunt sally whipped out her camera without any delay. and commanded me to start snapping. i was under tremendous pressure. and when it came to photos of the birthday lady (no longer a girl), everyone jsut stared at me. and me hating flash was trying to hard to get a non shaky photo. i missed a reallly nice shot cos the stupid camera WITH NO MANUAL FOCUS couldn't focus. i just like everything done manually. so then a few shaky shots and aaron's like "eh abigail delete all the lousy photos so that i dun ahve to upload so many." he's the official photo uploader for family gatherings. hahah! poor guy. lols. so we saw the three "m"s and uncle peng liang a first since you know when. and there was a solemn moment. welll there always has been since you know when. we played lotsa dai di and bridge. it's a family thing. lols! swam, did a few dives. saw something really damaginng to my eyes like a laterallly challenge unclothed XX chromosoned human being. it's just wrong. had dinner and we watched sharapova and hantuchova fight it out which really reminded me how much i miss tennis. i'll play just that i really can;t find a partner! everyone never has the time. shucks huh. maybe i should really find someone. FANNY!!!! tennisss?! lols! my racket is really sitting in my room and collecting dust. tennis, tennis.

so i'm thinking of learning some combat skills and uncle peng liang was recommending this place in balastier. should try that out. rather than running all the time. it's bad for the joints. lols! and it's not a full body workout. lols! i need my defination back. lols! okay i think i've said enough. no i have not.

finally, after atalkign bout painting my own mary janes i'm actually gonan do it cos waiseen actually got the shoes for me. so no more excuses. i'll paint a twin pair. have to come up with the design.

i can't believe prison break is going for a haitus. NO WAY! seriously! no prison break for 8 weeks=56 days=1344 hrs. no went as michael. and seriously, i bet they're gonna leave it hanging, like someone at gun point or something. so there. SERIOUSLY?! the wait would probably be excruciating. lols! now this is enough except i haven't said one thing.... I HEART WENTWORTH MILLER! he's so unbelievably down to earth. that's character. to be this big and to be this down to earth. gosh. this guy is really something.

okay now it has all been said.

quote of the day
"it's just that birthday's aren't usually a sore subject" -michael scofield in prison break's sleight of hand