i'm lovin' it

i love this song. i've been listening to it since yest. maybe i shall intro it. its quite nice. i like the lyrics. means quite alot. here it goes.

rescue

you are the source of life
i can't be left behind
no one else will do
i will lay hold of You

I need You Jesus to come to my rescue
where else can i go?
there's no other name by which i am saved
capture me with grace
i will follow You

this world has nothing for me
i will follow you
this world has nothing for me
i will follow you

copyrights 2003 Vertical Worship Songs
c/o Integrity Media, INC., 1000 Cody Road, Mobile, AL 36695
all rights reserved. used by permission. CCLI #4084763

anyway yea that's about it. hmmm pretty fun day in school today. reviewed the first written paper since i started my course. i regret not studying for it. cos if i have studied i would have done way better. well. anyway i dun think i failed it. but i didn't do well. that i know for sure. wells. lotsa work to do. the media critique exercise especially. 800 words of comments! story i can. not comments. well. i just finished the script for the locvd project 2. asw i said it's gonna be cheesy. i read eva's group script and its so sweet. i give credit to them for being able to write such a brilliant srcipt. well okie i better get going.

wells

its not easy to be me
but then again
it not easy to be anyone
if it was
heaven would be on earth
all i have to say
you have a humoungous ego
and i mean it
well but no one is perfect
not even the most perfect person you think you know
apparently
everyone has their own dark side
and time will soon uncover it
i thought you(refering to another) were close to perfect
apparently not
you lied to me
there has to be truth somewhere in this this
and obviously it's not coming from you
its not fun to find out from another
what i thought i knew was false
i cannot believe this
too much to phantom
yes if you're reading this
i'm talking bout YOU
you know it
deep down
how deep i dunno
or maybe you dont
cos you dont have a heart
or a conscience
maybe i'm wrong
but i dont think i am
i've thought it over alot
then again
i wish i were wrong
but who knows...
only God does.

i dont.

haha. lol. i wore my IJ uniform to church today. hahah should see the reactions i got. haha! hilarious! lol. been chatting online for hours while doing work. lol. i been chatting with God knows who and man, the things we talked about. semi serious and semi hilarious. still chatting. kinda fun you know. haha. lol. one thing i learnt today. brooding never solves anything. wells. the babies were really cute today. caleb can speak baby talk already. which is really cool. anyway i'm kinda high now. i need to do work but my concentration is just flat. ugh. well well. too much chatting i guess. well i'm staring at my phonetics book. and i hope my phonetics journal is in my thumbdrive. pls pls pls. cos i can't do it anymore. not anymore. convo over. i dunno wassup. but everything's a blur. its really kinda wierd. really really wierd. maybe its true. but nvm. i dont think anyone can understand me. or this post for that matter. you know what? maybe. maybe. i was in between. i had a taste of it. really. i can tell what its like. i think it sucks. ah all crap. should have stayed out alone. now i'm confused. i dunno what to do. so tell me. i realised another thing today. i judge too early. i dunno if anyone is for real now. cos i passed my judgement too fast. way to quick. but what if i'm correct. what if? i dunno. wells. nothing last forever if you wanna put it that way. my post is so disorganised. well. cos i myself am disorientated. i'm lost i dunno what to do. help me. pls somebody. was i right to say whatever i said. i dunno. maybe it was all crap. i think it was all crap now. i dunno. well i dunno... i really dont.

in pursuit of self.
the pursuit of self will never come to an end.
the pursuit of self will never be perfect.
the pursuit of self is a scope too wide.
the pursuit of self will never satisfy.
for to err is human,
and to forgive is divine.
i'm filled with crap,
and filled with fear.
that's why i'm writing such profound nonsense.
i'm just too pressured,
also too pushed.
i need an outlet,
like a sport.
but seems like there's no time,
for anything at all.
i wanna run,
jump and play.
i hate the fact that there's so much work,
and the fact that i want to work.
what have i become?
i want to ask.
why am i working
all so hard.
i love my guitar,
but its lying there.
collecting dust(okie not),
and of course rust.
there's so much things
that i want to do,
but i don't have the time or money,
i don't have the world.
see it's all crap
that i am writing.
cos' i can never be serious,
if you know me.
why am i working so hard?
i honestly don't know.
so don't blame me for being
kaisu, kan chiong and whatever else.
there you have,
the crappy substance of my being,
i have nothing more to offer,
so i shall get off my blogger.

i know why!

i know why i'm slogging so hard. NO ONE can stop me now! the exchange programme here i come! Queensland university! USC - watch out. i'm coming your way.